its been storming the whole night. i just love these kinds of nights. where i get to sit in the darkness, and watch the rain. i've never particularly been a sunshine girl. i'm the girl who cheers when she sees the rain coming down. but its also on these type of nights where i realise how alone i feel. shrugs. and it especially hurts when i think about me putting my well-being in your hands, and you totally forget about the appointment. how hard is it really to make a phone call. i asked you to do it, cos i know that i'll never have the guts to do it. i'm afraid, of going alone, of finding out what it all really means. stupid maybe.

i've been really thinking hard about uni lately. considering if i should even apply for nus law. and i know that i won't have the luxuries i have now at home overseas, but honestly, there's nothing much holding me back anymore. i have faith that the friends that are of importance to me, will still be my friends, wherever i go. and with no commitments, i really feel like i'm ready to start life afresh. i can't wait actually (: and if angie could go to the same continent with me. it'd really be a dream come true. grins.

my asian dance performance is tmr -.- i just found out today. brilliant eh.

it stung that you didn't stand up for me. or say anything in my defense. i understand that's the way you do things. but i couldn't help it. shrugs.

and you know what, i am happy with who i am at this point in time. i'm definitely not happy with how you treat ppl or treat me. just because you act like you're always right, being so damn assertive, doesn't make the things you do right. i'll never forget.

i have a feeling only ming and angie will get the last two. but wth, it was never meant for anyone to understand, its just for me to rant -.-

: listen :: beyonce :